Hello 12 hello 13

Sitting in class today and thinking about my life, I reminisced on my high school career and how I missed my carefree life. I remember having no worries: waking up, going to school, doing homework, watching TV, listening to music, hanging out with friends, playing in school sports teams, etc.

In class we were working on case studies and thought about what we would do if we took on the role of being a CEO or a VP of a certain company. What would we do to correct the problems that were brought up in the study? Wow! I am so close to entering the real world and officially becoming an adult. Where has the time gone?

I remember worrying the first day of high school because it was a new environment and I didn't know what I was getting myself into. Throughout my high school career I feel like I have grown as a person. I have had my rebellious stage (and still do from time to time). There is a lot i still have to learn, but life is a learning experience and I feel that every day through all the experiences I have and the people that I meet I become a stronger, better person.

When do you know when you are ready for the world? What obstacles do you face and how do you overcome them? Remember the days when mom and dad would always be by your side? The people who brought you into this world now watch you grow into a young adult. First step is graduating High School; next step is college and graduating college. Throughout your life, you are always growing as a person. What's next? The world is such a big adventure. There is so much to offer and it is all in your hands. Your choices make you the person you are, and take you where you want to go. How do you get to certain points in your life?
Is it the culture you are brought up in?
Is it your family life?
Is it where you grew up (i.e. town, region, state, country)?

I digress, when we are younger we have no worries. I take that back; we worry about what we are going to wear to school and if we are going to do our homework or not. When we turn 16 we start thinking about our futures. Counselors in high school start talking to students about SAT's and our futures. Things go from carefree and fun to "Think now about your future, your grades help determine what you want to do with your life!" thats scary!

When did life become so serious?

There is a lot that I am not certain of in my life, but the choices I make today impact tomorrow. The carefree days are over with.

Please Don't Leave me now!

So last night was probably one of my saddest nights since early May. It was a typical day for me. I went to work, relaxed, did some homework and went to the park. I got a phone call from my best friend Diana earlier in the day asking me if I wanted to go out with her later on. We made plans to meet up and  go out and do what we girls do best: "RAGE"!  and our personal favorite "ZONETIME"!

RAGE- a time when Natalie and Diana go out and let loose and enjoy themselves. Whether it be: going to Boston and walk around making new friends, shopping, chilling at one of our houses, eating at the Cheesecake Factory, going out to the night clubs etc.

When I got to her house we chilled for a bit and its great because Diana and I dont need to say a word and we can tell whats going on and each others mood. Its fairly interesting and creepy at the same time. In the short time that we have been friends (4 months) we have learned everything about each other, I can say that Diana is one of two people in Boston who knows me so well. I know, I know... you are thinking to yourselves; this girl is crazy. She has only known Diana for four months and they think they are that close? But we are. We can tell each other anything and its scary how much we are right on the ball if we take a guess as to what is going on in each others lives. Its shocking that i didn't see what was coming next; this could have ended the Saga of Natalie and Diana...

When I left her place she called me and told me that there was some trouble in paradise. There was some news that had freaked her out and she didn't want to tell me because she knew that it would freak me out. Well guess what, I am now freaking out! She told me how there were some things going on at her work and there was a possibility that she might have to be relocated. What? Time out. I cant hear this right now. My best friend, really; one of the few things I have in Boston could now be gone? It wasn't fair, I just had a friend come into my life and just like that she is getting taken away? Who can I lodge a formal complaint to?


I felt like someone just knocked the wind out of me, This is disastrous, I wanted to pull over on the side of the highway and get some air because the thought of loosing a friend so close to me. Just like those castles in the sky;  they make me realize that reality hurts. Where is my happily Ever after?
What happens when someone who has had such an impact in your life just disappears? It's a shock. 

do you ever question your life?

DJ MYSTIC - Castles in the Sky

Today was such a beautiful day outside. I had to open at my job, but that gave me the opportunity to get off of work at noon and I took advantage of the beautiful weather. Right when i walked out of the front door of my work I felt the sun welcome me with its warmth and I felt the brisk Autumn approaching with gentle winds. I know I am 23 years old but my inner child always has to have a chance to reveal herself on a daily basis and I decided to go to the park. I grabbed one of my textbooks and my soccer ball and walked down the road to the park. After exhausting myself; I laid down in the grass and just stared up at the sky and took a moment to myself. Staring at the clouds, I thought I saw a castle in the clouds and then I thought what my life would be like if I lived in a fairy tale and I was a princess. It made me think of the movies I watched when I was a kid: Cinderella, Snow White, The Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast.
When was my Prince Charming coming for me? Is my life going to be like the fairy tales i read and watched as a child? Is it possible to live in a castle with my prince and live "Happily ever after" or was that something that movies and books portray to keep hope in children that there is a better tomorrow somewhere? Is this the best I can do with my life right now? So much is now running through my mind and all this from a cloud? Wow. 
I love how a simple day in the park turns into me questioning myself as a person. The song Castles in the Sky is exactly what i did. I looked up into the sky and started daydreaming. Why i saw that castle in the sky? I don't know why, but that's what I saw and i went with it. 
My mind started to travel like Alice did when she fell down that hole and ended up in wonderland. What was real and what was fake. Everything was like a dream; my imagination took a hold and i went with it. I closed my eyes and thought of my life up til now and what I would and could do to change it. All from a cloud in the sky. 
The simplest things (like clouds in the sky) can entertain and amuse all. One has to stop and take time for themselves. In a world full of hustle and bustle there is bound to be a breaking point. 
Life does have a "Happily ever after" that comes from the choices you make and how you live your life. 


Just like the song asks:
Do you ever question your life? Do you ever wonder why?
Do you ever see in your dreams? Are the castles in the sky?


Oh tell me why, do we build castles in the sky?


Everyone is always questioning their lives, I think its in our nature. We always wonder what we could have done differently to get a better result but it is only a guessing game. 

About Me - Hello and Welcome

Hello and Welcome

My name is Natalie and I am a senior at Fitchburg State University. I am a Professional Communications major. In one of my courses I am to put together a blog, this is my first time doing something like this so any advice you have for me would be greatly appreciated. 

My life revolves around music; every time I have an experience of some sort I relate it to a song. I live life and every day that i live I see something or do something and relate it to music. By music I don't mean pop - culture and everything we hear on the radio on a regular basis; it can simply be beats, lyrics to a song, or the feel I get from a song. 


So with that, Welcome to my page!